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never have been feeling so bad,
i guess it is not just the harsh feeling,
this is like never before,
i which everything can back to it own place,
back to where we never meet.

Since it is so tough,
why don't you just let it go.
Sometimes things come by,
yet
you are not the one suppose the have it.

being so disappointing,
i don' know,
maybe it is embedded in me,
i guess so.
i am so bad,
not considerate,
i don't know what is toleration,
and i am not rational.

HAHA,
i guess i am so happy with all these characteristics,
i am a bad person,
maybe i will find a day going to,
i don't know,
somewhere where they enjoy and love bad person.
maybe this is where i suppose to go.

how is it like of being a moron?
i don't know,
i guess i will say i am happy because i can but you can't.
selfish?
YES, I am!
what's the time now?
only you know?
it's too late,
but it is still early if you wanna let your hand go.

SO LONG, SXXKER~

Think~

i once think that if i could still run,
how good it would be...

having fun with friends,
might have learn to cycle too,
hiking, trekking all around,
jogging,
or just playing around in the playground...
sounds so nice,
but i could never do it...

you can't tell the feeling when someone starred at you
and
laugh at you...
it's so hurt...
if i could ever be a normal healthy person,
i will,
i just hurt,
physically,
and
i hate those who hurt me mentally,

i tell you,
f you were me,
i don't know what will happened....

sometimes, please just think for other people,
they are not the same as you...

New~

it's seems to be so long ago since i last update my blog~
what a long time~
haha~
having exam, assignment all sort of stuff~
seems to be so busy~
even i got some free time also use them to sleep~
haha~
what a lazy person i am~

laziness really surrounding me nowadays~
i don't know why~
i wanna be better~
but yet
i try to be lazy as well~
strike to score 4 flat~
but you know~
lazy~
i rather lay on the bed than holding a book on my hands~
that's really a big trouble~

gonna start planning for my next semester and next year~
yup yup, yup~
start my plans~
mission, goals and plans~
i remember them~!!!
"Management Principle"~
haha~
planning new ways,
new stuff~
for my life~
^^
wish me luck ya~!!

Kampar~*.*

i don't want replacement class~
i don't want~
i don't want go to school on saturday morning~
i don't want~
i want home sweet home~
i want go home~
i wanna go back to KL~
here really bored~
i miss KL life a lot~
sad case~

wonder who i am~
can stay awake so long~
doing nothing all day long~
sleep all day long~
my world gone upside down~

class still fun~
still having some fun~
at least that a little bit~
better than none~
if not i gonna hate it~

not going so well with those people~
maybe i have my way,
my perspective of views,
that's differ from them~
so,
who cares?
i got my way,
you got your way,
just don't come and disturb mine,
thank you~

Who knows?

life seems to be so far, so good~
but one thing is that,
"Can you please shut down what you don't need just for a moment of peace?"
hate it~
is booming the house~
so what?
shared?
who cares~
now you stepped on my tail,
you gotta suffer~
that's it~
that's my theory~
no negotiation~
no way~

went to ipoh yesterday~
what i can say is just for fun~
just went there for a movie saturday noon~
nice "taugue" is the only thing i can describe ipoh~
other than that?
none~
but i haven't explore the whole ipoh~
at the moment,
ya~
just "taugue"~
maybe will go explore deeply~
but not now~
gotta start busying with the tutorial and assignment~
so badly~
after that,
peaceful life,
but not for long,
will be back to school life again~
just a short semester break~

so far so good~
this is what i can say~
don't complain so much~
you will find a better view of the place~
this is what i always think~
^^

life is short,
but it is good as though~

Sleep~

day without lecture~
haha~
although gotta get up early in the morning,
at least i am free in the noon till night~
kinda tired now~
sleepy~
haha~
being a lazy bum nowadays~
don't know why~
haha~
lazying all around~
a lot a lot~
haha~
even lazy to on my lappy~
oh my~
haha~
but kinda feeling like get back to school already~
it's nice~
but the only thing is--bike~
no eye see~
not i am fear of bike~
just~
i don't know how to explain~
just it takes time for me to learn~
ya~
it's just like that~
no other else~

lazy bum is going to take a nap~
^.*

Simply~z

it's the second week of school life at kampar~
and it's the third week i am here~
living in kampar~
haha~
tiring here~
'cause don't have things to do here~
i rather i am busy at KL~
at least i won't feel bored at all~
just like now here~
and become lazier as well~
oh my~
i don't know how could i be after three year when i am back to KL~
haha~
who knows that time i could be at where?
don't know~
haha~

class still fun~
but it's tough as though~
haha~
don't know what myself are talking about~
maybe i just need some rest~
kinda late now~
but~
just wanna have some words here~
it's kinda nice compare to other things that happening around~
people, things~
so much~
can't really negotiate with them sometimes~
really~
i don't know is my problem
or just we don't have the same channel~
haha~
forget about it~
we might not meet after graduate as well~
we got our own ways~
not anyone could decide them for me~
so~

be TOUGH~!!!^^

Simply wordingzz~

i am back in computer lab again~
oh my~
new computer~
so great~
playing around with those coding~
quite good~

maths class~
almost a disaster~
'cause we are using Gauss-Jordon Elimination~
*faint*
i rather use Cramers rule instead of it~
T.T

digital class was really fun~
maybe we still working on the basic stuff~
so we don't really having much trouble with it~
it's a good sign, right?
haha~
gotta have the lab class today~
see how we gonna enjoy it~
^^

management principle~
wow~
i never know that i have so much to study instead~
but it's really a good way to understand all these things~
fun?
ya~
but it is more to learning step by step towards the leading and managing in the future~
it's interesting~

circuit theory~
my goodness~
can he show use that small little resistor?
don't draw~
i want real one~
all of them look alike when he drew it~
real one can fulfill my curiousity~
do you know that,
"Curiousity can kill a cat?"
haha~
i do think so~
although not really killing the cat~
haha~

wish me luck~
having more fun in uni~
and of course,
my study~
^^

Annoyed~

yucks~
i don't like that~
please~
can you think on the other people side?
isn't that is bad for what you have done?
oh my~

really annoying and frustrated~
haiz~
no eye see~
and i am really tired~
i don't know why~
always so tired nowadays~
hair even falls~
i don't know whether i am too stressed or what~
maybe is the starting of school life~
i still not used to all of these~
packed up with lots of things~
and
irritating~
what could i explain somemore~
so badly~

i wanna go back home~
as fast as possible~
i don't want at here~
so~
i don't want~
i want home~
i want home~

and i need sleep~

Simply wordings~z

dropping class~
my goodness~
they wanna drop it~
i don't know why~
they wanna drop it~
but for me,
just takes it~
don't think so much~
if not you gonna lose more of them~
this is what i always think~
haha~
nonsense~
why i am kinda talking nonsense all the time nowadys?
don't know~
and don't wanna know~
haha~

two weeks already~
is going to be~
hot~
still the same word from the start~
hot hot and hot~
nothing can describe here~
pasar malam~
ok lu~
i think KL is better than here~
much more~
maybe i am too used to KL already~
can't really survive long~
haha~
see what's gonna happen after i really go back to KL~
is totally darker~
haha~

Crazy Ones~

Simply wordings~

first day of school~
haha~
messed up~
maybe i should go learn it~
haha~
i don't know~
always having those kind of fear~
that can't be spoken out~
hope someone can understand me~
isn't that i don't want it~
is my body don't let me to do it~
i don't know how to explain it~
maybe i like to use the most traditional way~
or we can say it as the most idiot way~
haha~
but i enjoy it~
you know?
haha~

can't really sleep well at here~
maybe i still not used to the weather here~
i gotta used to it somehow~
three years time can pass very fast~
just as i always say~
haha~

thinking about what club or society to join~
music again?
don't know~
but it's in my blood~
join what other than it?
i don't know~
art and craft?
yucks~
rather close myself in room and do it myself~
erm~
BA?
no way~
that is more focus on practical stuff~
don't want~
can i open one myself?
haha~
sleep club~
nice man~
haha~

我不懂

等待，是沉默还是承受？沉默，是害怕还是寂寞？
似懂非懂～

Kampar~*.*

why girls like blogging?
who knows?
just like why guys love blogging?
maybe is the same~
who knows that~
everyone got their own answer~
for me~
it's just a place for me~
not that private~
but it's a bit personal~
a space for myself and friends~
and it's always should be like that~

wish to go back KL~
really not used to the weather here~
i miss KL a lot~
wanna go back to my HOME SWEET HOME~
KL~~~
a week just passed~
and i am suffering in the hot weather here~
oh my~
i don't know yet~
see how the next few weeks would be~

kinda tired now~
rest time~

Kampar~

life in Kampar~
oh my~
it's hot~!!!
extremely hot~
my goodness~
so hot~
sweat until~
i think most of my shirts are wet all the time~
so~
i don't know what to say at all~
just a word~

HOT~!!!

few days didn't update my blog already~
so sad~
=(
never mind~
now got more time to update already~
^^
so good~
^^
brought white white and boss with me~
they are so cute~
(although they mostly are being thrown somewhere~ =p)
haha~
but still feel a bit like a "HOME"~

got kinda many~
or a lot i think~
nice view here~
gotta take some nice photos tomorrow~
if not~
really feel sorry for myself~
didn't take a nice photo here~

^^
games time~!!
tata~
^^

Don't know~

i don't even have nice mood~
don't wanna break all the surrounding here~
better don't think about it~
seal it~
if not i would be angry~
bad mood~
no way~

tomorrow is my last day at here~
coming back during breaks~
maybe~
don't know yet~
see how~

gonna miss the way i walk to work everyday~
miss it a lot~
haha~

wanna sleep now~
haha~

Tiring~

why i wanna rush everything so fast?
i don't know~
maybe i just wanna help my colleague~
teaching new person wasn't that good~
especially when she knows--NOTHING!!!
nothing about account~
oh my~

tiring~
now i gonna rush her part~
then rush another "her" part~
too much of her~
oh my~
is two person~
my colleague is now taking leave~
then now new girl is here~
so i gonna teach her~
so bad~
i thought we can teach her together~
but now just me alone~
what also she come ask me~
not enough hands for work~~~~!!!

oh my~
i just wanna

SHOUT~!!!

and

SLEEP~~~

zzzZZZZ~

I knew~

never knew myself could do it so fast~
maybe it's because i am leaving~
so i don't wanna left bad image to them~
haha~
just maybe~
but i am tired now~
hope my colleague can come back asap~
it's kinda long waiting her~
>.<
but she will be back on friday~
and my last day is friday~
what a sad friday~
i just hope i can help her complete some of her job~
then she won't stuck in so many things when she is back to her position~


i knew that feeling~
being like an "Superwoman"~
oh my~
i don't want that again~
it's tiring~
wanna sleep after everything~
i think i wanna go sleep early tonight~

p/s:is it so important to give a good image after leave?
who knows?
haha~

Blur~

tiring day~
feel so dizzy now~
wanna have a nice sleep~
sleepy~

so sad~
i start to count down~
i don't like that~
no calendar~
no countdown~
yup~
that's it~

but now it's going to be 6pm~
go home time~
haha~
but also raining time~
oh my~
i don't wanna get wet~!!!
i want to go home~~!!!

so blur now~
don't know what i am doing~
better go sleep~

Don't work~ >.^

yesterday whole day can't online~
so sad~
today whole day online~
haha~
head went to outlet already~
hahaha~
so good~

my colleagues brought some souvenir to us~
from Langkawi~
so nice~
chocolate~
going to try the cocktail one tonight or tomorrow~
^^
hope it's nice~
^^

new colleague is coming next week~
p/s: hopes she don't put plane~
haha~
last few days now~
counting down~
although i don't like to do that~
don't like that feeling of counting down~
'cause we used to do that for big and serious examinations~
so better don't~
haha~

Time~

today before 3pm,
i am still not doing my work~
but i still doing key-in today~
no one is on in merchant department today~
so~
help out~
key in all invoices with my colleagues~
luckily we can finish them~
if not sure got a lot of work bundle up~
awaiting us~
haha~
still feel the carbon on my hand~
my goodness~

tired day~
very sleepy~
thought still have long time~
just realize time passed so fast~
haha~
kinda serious today~
haha~
so didn't realize time really passed~
now doing knock-off~
haha~
it might be the last time i do them~
haha~
better enjoy the last time than none~

Wednesday night~
^^
Comedy Night~
GREEEAAAAAT~~~!!!
gonna laugh non-stop again tonight~
haha~
love it~!