I HATE myself!!!

Cried for the same thing again and again. Why can't I be someone that no people have got something from me? I always wonder, why can't I just be a normal person that everyone love, done wrong once a while? Why? Don't expect me to do all things! I am just a lonely person with NOTHING! If you think I am so disappointing, just leave me...I don't wanna let myself always in pressure because of something that I am not suppose to think and worry of. Everyone has pressure, I know. But not everyone can stand all the pressure. Tell? Who to tell? You think eveyone or your friends is so free to hear about this? I believe there is one but the pressure is still remains there. I have been dunked inside and I have suffered enough. What I want is freedom. I got freedom now from my parent but not from guardians. So what? They can't control how my life goes, I myself can control it but why must them disturb so much? Why can't I have my choices and my fate? I know God has plans for my life and I am waiting but not making me disappoint of the world. What I like to do is always rejected by people surrounding me, what I decide to do is always unsupported, what I want is always been a rubbish to them. That's enough! I have suffered enough! Let me go. Just let me go. Please. I am just a useless person.

I am not a wonderful person. I did wrong also. I will do wrong too. I know I am not that good too. I am tired enough. So, please don't force me once again. I might died under your words. Really. I don't know where should I go and what should I do. I am totally lost this time. What I want now is time, time to let me to think, think of everything. Please. Let me. Please.





I HATE myself,
Faith