Bye~ 2009...

yor~
cham liao~
2010 is coming~!!!!!
ah~~~!!!
turn older already~
my goodness~
2009 finish already~
yor~
so bad~
just only want to enjoy,
then finish already~
but never mind,
i know the last minute of 2009,
and the first minute of 2010,
i can spend with somebody~
^.<
so great~
love it so much~
^^

2009 is coming to an end~
just like a story book,
a happy ending~
is it?
happy ending?
to everyone?
i wish so~
'cause,
it an end~
all ended~
don't think about it already~
i choose to forget about it~
all those bad stuff~
circumstances~
ya,
let them go~
and i will have a very nice 2010~~
yeah~
cheer for 2010~!
hooray~

say GOODBYE to 2009~!


Love
^^

Fall~

i wonder sometimes~
are people feel enough with what they have now?
for me,
ya,
i feel enough~
i got what i want now~
what i hoping for is just simple life~
as simple as it could be~
i don't like all those complicated stuff~
is tiring...
not,
i don't like to put myself in those circumstances if i could...
'cause,
i don't like to let myself so tired with all those stuff...
there are much more happy stuff outside,
so i rather go search for happiness in life,
than solving all those problems...

people always say,
we will learn after we felt down,
but i think,
sometimes,
we don't need to fall...
we learn from other people mistakes...
that can make us grow faster,
see further...
every hurt needs time for recovery,
that's for sure...
if i have to fall,
then i will choose a way that won't make myself so pain,
so hurt...
'cause i don't want myself wasting a long time just to calm down myself,
just to make myself back to normal mode...
no,
no way...

people always have two side of themselves...
one optimistic,
one not...
or one very serious,
one totally crazy and playful...
both are them in their life~
no matter which side of them they are,
they are human like me and you~
so,
just be true to yourself...
no matter what your characteristic are~



Love

Specs vs. Eyes

so bad~
system lack~
yesterday system corrupted,
now lack~
one whole day lack...
so bad~
wanting to complete all the job faster,
but what now,
lack until~
thought i can make thing faster~
now,
become slower~
haiz~
nevermind,
'cause wasn't my own computer~
haha~
my own sure...
i kick it until whole computer can't use~!
haha~
i can't stand computer running so slow~
'cause is no good keep on staring on the screen,
right?
so,
everyone who always stare on the computer screen~
be aware~
i don't wish all the optics company getting more money~
don't make your eyes so tired~
they really can own lots of money~
'cause too many people are wearing spectacle now~
really,
trust me...
now even a 5-year-old small kid also wearing spec~
pity them~
so for those who still no need to wear spec,
take care of your eyes~
kk~ ^.<

Crazy ~

Christmas~
just passed...
but is wonderful~
i had a great time~
first time in my life really happy,
celebrating christmas differently,
from the past~
ya,
first time ever i woke up so early on christmas day~!
hohoho~
before 8am i already woke up...
first time~
haha...

but i really had a nice day...
watching movies~
chatting~
thanks...

i don't know what to post today~
soooo...
jammed~
my mind,
jammed~
i don't know what happened,
but what i know is i gonna have lots of time for me to sleep,
for one whole day~
shuang~
i'm totally crazy already~
but i really wish that day will come...
'cause i really like to sleep~
haha~
sleep, eat, tv~
one whole day~
last for 3 days,
and that's enough~
'cause too much i will be "fei po"~
haha~
will grow fat easily~
so can't be so relax always...
haha~
crazy girl~
haha~

Sad~

yor~
now only i know,
what you did on the past,
you have to pay for it...
now or maybe later,
in the future...
that's a fact~
what i always say...
a fact can't bluff people~
not for once...
and ever...

felt so tired with all those stuff that happening around me...
it's end of 2009,
but not the end of all the circumstances...
i wish all of them go away...
don't surround me~
i am just an ordinary people,
i can't take so much of them...
just like anyone else,
but why?
why?
why can't they just past?
i wonder,
wonder about it every time...
but what can i do?
nothing...
nothing i could do...
wait,
just waiting...
keep on waiting...
like a stup,
that's only thing i can do...
nothing else...
so sad to hear it,
right?
but,
that's a FACT!
so,
haiz~
sad~

i don't know,
whether i am on the bright side,
or the dark side...
what i know is,
life is difficult,
more difficult than i ever thought...

Audit today~

boo~
back already from audit...
today really very fast,
i think...
'cause its the third time i go audit with my colleagues,
and this time is the quickest,
i completed mine...
so fast,
and i done another job...
unsettle balance...
so,
wow,
first time...
but my eyes,
ya,
felt tired too...
just like the past two times...
but luckily i can go home,
same time as i didn't go out to outlet do audit...
so,
it's great...
and that's enough~
although don't have overtime pay,
but i think is better to be at home,
to be the people you care,
and love...
friends,
are people you need in life,
but i think,
i will put those who i love and care in the first place,
they are much more than anything else in my life...
so,
i always put them first,
sometimes maybe i didn't show it out,
but i just wanna let them know,
that they are always in my heart,
no matter what happen in my life,
once they are,
forever they are....

Days~

sped up~
crazy...
non-stop typing for 3 hours plus...
this might not the first time in my life,
but if key-in account,
ya,
first time ever i key-in account in such a speed...
can drive me crazy already...
to get on the dateline,
make me now have to keep on typing,
just like a machine...
a fully-charged machine...
type n type n type...

ah~
don't know la~
so blur for one whole day...
because i keep on typing for a whole day...
and,
made 5 cups of coffee,
two jugs of chinese tea
and bring in and out more than 10cups,
washed them,
even boiled water too...

oh ya,
iu made tong yuen yesterday night...
so fun...
coz i can play flour again...
i like to play flour a lot...
haha~
maybe lots of people think i am very childish
but,
i just figure out my way to having fun...
so,
i don't mind...
my secret recipe always work~
even spag today...
my colleague say it's nice...
haha~
maybe i can be a chef someday in the future~
haha~
maybe i just think too much~
haha~

Sweet sweet sweet~

the sweetest icing i ever ate~
wa~
very very sweet~
my goodness~
but it's so cute!!!
picture is posted on facebook~
wow~
my colleagues ate Nemo~~
and a big yellow OCTOPUS~
haha~
all can be eaten de...
all sweets~
that's why i say,
i really can grow fat~
just one cup cake only...
but those icing~
blue blue de~
the theme is ocean~
so all blues~
got stars,
shells...
big OCTOPUS,
fishes...
stones~
wow~
cute cute CUTE!!!
that's the only word i can say,
the only word i can describe those cupcakes~
but the taste,
i won't say yes to it~
very sweet....

Tiredness...

felt i need more time for myself to calm down...
maybe i just need more time than the others to overcome it~
whenever i thought of it...
i still feel pain~
maybe i am just not an optimistic person as i thought myself are...
i need lots of courages,
lots of fun,
lots of time,
lots of entertainment,
or i can say is all sort of jokes,
or just a quiet place,
for me to calm down...
for me to forget all those bad things...
all those circumstances,
that just drop by in my life...
maybe that is just what i need now...

have to start to make all sort of decision...
but i felt so tired,
not from the outside,
is my heart,
my mind,
my soul...
is so tired...
i don't know how to explain it,
but just,
i am tired...

i just wanna be myself...
who i am...
that's a fact,
everyone wants that,
but you gotta make your first step first...
not just sit back and wait...
try it,
if not,
sure you'll regret...
trust me...
if you never try,
you never have the chance...

Decision...

know what i feel now?
terrible...
horrible...
i don't think i have done enough...
always...
i don't know why~

i had dreamt that nightmare again...
i don't know why~
is a bad sign,
or a good sign?
i don't know~
'cause it happens once awhile...

i got no mood to post anything actually...
'cause i came across lots of circumstances in life these few days...
i can't afford it...
it's too much...
i afraid i can't overcome it...
all of them came to me too sudden...
by the time i took one,
another came in...
maybe is just a step nearer to be grown...
so i gotta face all of them to prove i really can be an adult...
can do all of them,
solve all of them by myself...

is all about life...
we have to sacrifice something in order for us to get another...
we have to make decisions in our life...
we mustn't regret,
'cause regret just a waste of life,
of time...
we have to put ourself in the junction...
think so much that we have never do before...
just,
once you make those decisions,
please,
don't regret in the future...
please...

no matter you are still struggling now,
or haven't a clue...
please,
when you make your decisions,
don't ever regret...
accept it,
accept them...
you'll learnt a different lesson from the other...
that's YOUR life...

Bad feelings...

moody~
sad~
disappointing~
all the bad feelings~
haiz~
these few days are fill with all these feeling all the time...
i don't know why...
just that feeling keep coming out on my mind...
i wanna smile,
wanna laugh out,
but...
i just can't do it~
maybe i am worry about all that happening around me...
myself,
my family members,
so bad...
so sad...
i don't know what to say anymore...

i don't wanna just accept it as my fate...
but i gotta face the truth too...
i can't turn away myself just like that,
i can't run away just like that...
i gotta face it,
solve it...
but first,
i gotta cure myself...
take myself away from all those bad feelings...

i don't hope that conquers too much of my time...
i know life is short...
i gotta spend it wisely...
happily..
with those i really love...


LoVe...

Imagination...

yor~
today didn't get to type anything long~
so sad...
but nevermind...
i'll try now~
3 minutes time...
see what i can get~
haha...

let's do some imagination today~
just like that cartoon-- Spongebob Squarepants
haha~
that sponge really good in imaging things~
no matter what~
he is jumping out of the box~
not like us..
always keep ourself inside a box...
inside the box,
the frame that we made by ourself...
by the sight of others,
of the world...
he always think out of the box...
that you never thought of...
or we can say is,
we thought of it,
but we didn't know it really works...

although you might think that was just a cartoon...
no big deal...
but i don't think so...
'cause everything has it use...
even just a simple show...
maybe you'll think something gone wrong with me,
but what i wanna say is,
Spongebob really taught me something...
that is,
think out of the box...
out of that normal way...
it seems to be crazy,
but we gotta put it into action...
and that make us different from others...

so,
what i wanna say is,
think out of the way...
think differently...

OKR~

boo~
the photoshop really takes time....
tired~
first time so crazy~
download for 3 days...
then now install...

tiring~~
haiz~~
lost mood already~
let me think what to type first....

today~
ya...
have lunch at somewhere called--
OKR-Old Klang Road~
sounds cute right?
haha~
like you bought the whole road~
is a cafe~
cute...
food there..
quite nice~
quite enjoy~
we chat and
gossiping~~~
haha...
really fun~
all chuishui~
haha...
feel so relax with them...
OKR~

Difference...

what you gonna do,
if you saw your picture when you was young?

3 years old,
standard 3
or when you was form 3?

and,
you are different from the past...
no more a little kid...
can't recognise it...
but still can see is you yourself...

for me,
ya~

i found my photos...
when i was young...
and,
the person inside is so different from the one you might know now...
ya,
can said as changing a lot...
had braces for almost two years...
or can say is one and a half year plus...
and eyes...
the way i treat people...
the way i do things...
manage my stuff...
all...
everything,
is so different...

but changing is still a good thing,
right?
change to be better... =)

life is like that...
changes all the time...
agree?

Friends, True Friends...

don't feel like writing the part.2...
cause~
i don't have the mood like yesterday...
so bad...
thought i can post it wan...
haiz~
wait till it shot in my mind again~
i sure it will...
^^

then,
talk bout other thing ba~
erm...
it's see...
"Friends"

it's a nice topic...
ya~
'cause friends really the person we need in our life...
is just like air...
you can't survive without air...
without friend,
you like living in a lonely place...
nobody to talk to,
to play with,
to share yourself...
whether happiness, sadness...
or your anger,
all the feelings...
no matter good or bad in your life...
they can make you forget about all of them...
or remember it in your memory...

friends are like your hands,
always by your side...
on your left,
and right...
they are always there for you...
once you speak out,
they will come to you,
give you a hand,
help you,
hear you,
do everything for you...
they put you first...
no matter what happens...
they do it all for you...
and,
they should be called--true friends

they put you in their mind,
and
in their heart too...
they care about you...
maybe more than you care about yourself...
they like to chat with you...
wanna know how you feel...
what's going on with you...
wanna have great fun with you...
they share their happiness with you...
and for sure,
you gotta put them in your heart too...
treat them well...
they are all your friends...

life is short...
you know,
you gotta spend it well...
with your love ones,
with your family,
with your friends...
as they all do it to you too...
enjoy your life ya~
^^

Yesterday...

everyday walk...
walk to work...
haiz~
feel so bored liao...
suddenly i wish i could drive...
haha~
but i know how to drive already also no use...
'cause i don't own a car...
so~
just forget about it...

yesterday night~
wow...
i moved my bookshelf all by myself~
haha...
i thought i can't move it at first...
but~
haha...
so now i know where all the food gone...
just for me to move all the cupboards and shelf~
haha...

yesterday's audit...
quite fun...
'cause staring at all numbers~
gonna crazy like that~
haha~
but at least we complete it very fast...
if not we have to go back home extremely late... T.T
first time go auditing~
what i know is my eyes are soooo tired....
crazy~
next week,
and next next week also gotta go audit~
the mall and bangsar...
wish me luck~
my colleagues told me that two are very fan~
my goodness...
but i am sure when i go there,
everything is solved...
haha~

since talking about yesterday...
then talk bout that song, "Yesterday"
i like that song...
is just so smooth..
so nice...
felt so relax...
the song like having a power...
make my heart,
my soul...
all feel relax...
feel so great~

True love part.1

i don't know how to start it actually...
just maybe it's kinda sensitive...
i don't know...
idea shot in...
but
this might be the 1st time,
or
don't know...
maybe not...

just...
do you think true love waits?
i don't know...
but i waited...
but this is all bout feeling...
you know...
what you feel,
from your inner heart,
from your mind,
from your soul...
that strong feeling...
that hunger...
and,
what the other person who you love feels...
the same way too...
is the same...
love...

Fun~

wow~
i think i gonna break my own record already...
yesterday's post was so long...
wow~
great man...
haha...
next time must post one longer one...
haha...
i am kinda crazy already~
break this type of record...
but is kinda fun...
because i can play around with words~
haha~
doing all my favourite stuff...
feel so great~

don't feel bored wo~
i know is kinda long...
but i don't think today's gonna be long...
because i just can online a while....
so~
haha...

^^

Pressure...

people always say,
"men can perform better under pressure."

but
i don't really agree it..
'cause...
too much of pressure can make one totally exhausted...
i think...
although it seems to be working on...
just from the outside only..
how bout inner side?
tiredness, exhausted, bored...
these are all because of pressure...
so, i don't like it...
not most of the time...
sometimes i might say, "yes"
to pressure...
'cause they really make me do lots of stuff...

somehow, i think
pressure doesn't bring meaning to our life..
u know?
your life,
your studies,
your work,
your family...
is all about yourself...
and all of them giving you pressure...
if you see through it...
but if you look at them from the other way,
they are all your supporters in your daily journey...

it's all depends on you,
how you look at all those things,
sadness, argument....
that's your life....
you can choose it...
don't make excuses...
this is what someone always tell me...

excuses,
are way people running away from themselves...
from all those circumstances in life...
trust yourself,
fill yourself with more self-confidence,
let your friends give you more confidence...
i am so sure about it,
you are able to solve any problem in life...
no matter what...
you gotta believe it...

y am i pulling so far away?
i should be focus on pressure...
haha~

i believe each one of us have our way in it...
just trust yourself,
don't run away...
each fall in our life bring lots of meaning to us...
no matter for now, or the future...
you just need to
BELIEVE YOURSELF
that's it....

風

風
我很喜歡的一個字
不知道為什字
就是喜歡 這個字

風
涼涼的
一陣一陣
被風圍繞
會感覺
輕飄飄的

所以
我真的很喜歡有風的地方
就好象朋友一樣
在我身邊

風

After School~

wow~
one day only...
now i know why i got panda eyes always...
coz i really feel tired~
haha...
now really dark ady...
cham liao~
nevermind, sleep more tonight...
haha~

about that "Love" article...
erm~
that idea just came into my mind...
then i just type it out...
this thing always happen...
so i used to bring a notebook with me,
or i will hold my phone,
just to type in all of them~
ah!!!!
my message box totally full...
haiz~
what can i do...
words are my friend....
i can't lose them....

After School
we always say that when we were still in school life,
especially secondary school...
"eh, play ball after school!"
or...
"eh, go cc after school lo..."
or...
"go McD after school lo...xxx driving us..."

all about after school...
we can do a lot of things after school...
online, sms, chit chatting, sleep, eat, blah blah blah...
but what its mean for you?
that's our only free time after all those of studies for a day...
after school...

i can say it mean a lot to me...
coz i always busy during school...
that's time for me to rest...
haha~
time to play, relax...
chat with friends...
so i really appreciate it...
but now...
just left--AFTER WORK
coz temporarily working now...
but
it's the same...
that's the time to have FUN!!!

so...
what i can say is,
make use o all your time..
you can know more, discover more...
more than what you ever known...
trust me...
^^

^.<

ah~
wanted to write new song de ar~
but...haiz...
sad la...
no idea at all...

heard a nice song,
-My Grandfather's Clock
chiinese version....
Lee Sheng Jie new song...
very nice~

lazy larr~
let me think of what to post somemore ba~

Songs~~

heard "the climb" again...
i like that song...
don't know why...
just like it so much...
maybe my voice also like that~
haha...

wanna go sing k la~
but my dear...valentine
good friends...junny,will all...
haiz...
suan liao....

"always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes i just gonna have to lose"

i like these two lines so much...

"keep your faith"

just like my name...

someone bought me a book..."Have A Little Faith"
i haven't start reading it...
but i do like that book a lot...
so, after finish reading my "the 13th tales"
then gonna read it already....^^

ah~
so long never compose already...
it was like so unfamiliar already...
the stage, the words, the feel...
kinda miss it...
haha~
got chance 1st ba...
don't like to perform...
i just wanna enjoy music~
that's part of my life...

I'm Back~

Wow~
so long...never type already...
haha~this is a sadness for those who don't own a pc....
but nevermind...haha...
graduate already...!
don't know is good or bad...
because now working...
account~
so different from what i learn in school...
I AM A SCIENCE STUDENT~
but still ok...
just figure n numbers,
+-*/...
still easy for me~
haha~

please la...
don't ask me already...
you all will found out de la....
i don't like to tell people about this stuff...
so please stop asking already...
sorry ya, all my sis n bros...