Sweet food~

suddenly i found out all hot things are sweet things~
hot jasmine tea~
is equal to
sweet hot jasmine tea~
my goodness~
can't eat fried food~
then also all sweet one~
that's why the government all announced to increase the price of sugar~
'cause too much of sugar using in cooking
and making drinks~

i think~
someday later,
i won't want to go outside and have my meal anymore~
they all use too much of seasoning~
and
sugar,
salt~
oh my~
i rather cook myself~
than eating all that~
at least i know what i am adding in my food~
rather than let other people putting all those of stuff inside~
maybe once a while go outside and have a dinner,
is okay~
but not having meals outside everyday~
i can't stand that~

i think i going to start anti-ing outside food already~
or just my taste is different from others?
i don't know that~
what i prefer is healthy lifestyle~
and of course~
healthy food~

maybe is just very choosy~
don't know~

January~

28~
nice number~
and
today is 28th of January~
2010
for sure~
that's mean~
January is coming to an end~
so fast~
wow~

now i realize time really passes very fast~
just a blink of an eye~
haha~
this phrase reminded me of a song~
"Through My Window"
haha~
a cute song~
nice~

back to January, 28th
okay~

16days more to Chinese New Year~
wow~
so fast~
never thought that~

i still remember when i was in secondary school,
i wish CNY is near~
then i will have lots of holiday~
haha~
and we got a holiday in the middle of a semester~
although short,
its just for yourself to relax a while after all hard work~
so,
CNY usually falls on end of Jan
or first half of Feb~
about ten days holiday,
for the preparation
and of course,
the celebration,
then
march holiday~
about four to five weeks after the CNY holiday~
nice,right?
haha~

but
i didn't appreciate it~
now,
kinda regret~
but
i know i had a great time~

people always says,
a fall can makes oneself more mature than before~
ya~
i agree~
i felt~
i know~
then i learned~
and learning~
each and everyday~
you gonna face different things everyday~
although some people around you,
different things will pop up~
you will never know~

you may get ready of yourself everyday,
but not just from the outside only~
is from inside out~
haha~

i felt myself is talking nonsense already~
haha~
never mind~
at least i know there is something i wanna say~
hidden message~
haha~

so,
end of January~
there is 11 more month to go~~
then we celebrate 2011~
haha~


i think i already gone crazy~

CraZy~....

Blurr~

i found out that i am extremely blur nowadays~
haha~
funny,
right?
haha~
can't explain it why~
but i know i am blur now~

or maybe just full of imagination?

haha~
don't know~
i keep on imagining lots of stuff~
haha~
thinking is free~
you no need to do it~
haha~

chinese new year is round the corner~
just two weeks more~
haha~
happy happy holiday~
crazy eating days~
crazy playing days~
haha~
then can meet with friends~
chit-chatting all~
so fun~
haha~

CNY~
comes faster~!!!
haha~!
>.^

Job~

enjoy playing some interesting computer games nowadays~
don't know why~
maybe is too bored in office~
ya~
i do think so~
'cause i don't have many things to do in office~
ya~
so,
always bored~
i can't type too fast too~
haiz~
so many things to think about~
gotta adjust time~
nothing to do then sitting in front computer,
don't knowing what can i do~
online?
what can i go find some more?
play games?
ya,
i am playing~
and now what,
i still so bored~
finding people to chat with~
but
can i have some other things else to do?
study~
or reading~
i want it so much~
but i spending most of my time sitting in front of computer,
doing nothing~
haiz~
this is what we called work~
office work instead~
this is the reason why i prefer lab job,
or working hard under the sun~
i got the satisfactions~
not like this~
the feeling is so different you know~
at least you get to see the end result~
you enjoy the processes~
ya,
you gotta make your career be your job,
not your job be your career~
that's totally different~


suddenly i feel i wanna be jobless~

sad case...

Crazy~

tired~
don't ask me why~
just tired~
once i reached home,
then i got that feeling~
wanna sleep~
haha~

but i don't like to sleep before i shower~
so~
haha~
feel uncomfortable~
don't know why~

for me,
bed is the best place in house~
and,
you spend most of your time on your bed~
so,
you gotta keep your bed nice and comfortable for yourself~
if not,
you can't rest well~
that's why,
i wish i could have my own bedroom~
decorate it~
paint with nice colour~
then put all my teddies inside~
wow~
that's really great~

then i have one room as my wardrobe~
put all my clothes inside~
another room to put all my D.I.Y. stuff~
a working room~

AH~!!!

my dream house~
i wish i can own it~
haha~

ya,
almost forgotten~
one more big space,
i don't wanna put them inside room,
a big space,
put my piano there~
haha~
then buy guitar,
drum set~
have a great rock band~

AH~!!!

how great~!

^^

cRazY giRL,

crAzY ThoUgHt~

Silence~

silence~
so please remain silent~
don't talk~
don't sing~
don't~
even just a tiny voice~

please~

and now,
think about those happened in Haitians~
pity~

so,
make some donation,
if you can~

just,
ya~
help them to build up their country back~

School~

back~
monday~
first day of work~
what can i say,
other than,
bored~
now i really experience working life~
i rather study than work~
'cause i have more fun~
haha~
ya,
although i can learn new things,
i still prefer study~
'cause,
you don't have the pressure,
just like working~
especially in account department~
you gotta make sure everything is balance~
then do all paper work,
and key-in stuff~
so,
i'm not that type of accounting person~
haha~
i can do it~
but not facing all that each and everyday~(although i don't work on weekends,haha~)

study~
i miss those time so much~
going to school everyday~
chit-chatting with good friends~
buddies all~
having lots of fun~
laugh together~
study together~
really having lots of great time~

i miss school~~

Don't knowing~

i don't know what to say today~
is just like regular day~
nothing much special happening today~
friday~
just an ordinary friday~
went to "Old Klang Road",
had our lunch together with my colleagues~
then,
back to office~
ya~

morning,
used the slowest speed to walk to office~
everyday same routine~
suddenly i wish someone can drive me to office~
drive me to lunch~

feel like wanna watch movies~
three in a rout~
great~
but i'm sure that i will have headache after that~
in dark room too long already~
i can't stand that~

just finish typing a letter just now~
i wonder why they all can stop all those grammatical mistakes~
use verb as noun~
then simply use all plural form~
gosh~
maybe this is what they call office life~
but i don't like that~
i like things to be prefect~
i mean on those works all~
ya,
'cause i can try my best to make it perfect~
so i will try to do that~

kinda sensitive towards milk nowadays~
don't know why~
that day i drink milkshake also like that~
i drank honey milk today also have the same feeling~
all those weird feeling~
don't know why~
maybe i had too much~
need to control myself~

LaZy bUm WanNa SomE laZy DaYs~

Days~

nope,
nope,
nope...
not gonna talk about food today~
'cause i really will grow fat~
keep thinking about food~
make me have lots of appetite~
keep on eating and eating~

stop it~

STOP IT~~!!!

kinda lost control because of food~
but what can i do~

i realize i really type very fast nowadays~
keep on key-in invoice until now
completed everything~
fast man~
haha~
now really free~
go check out some nice stuff~
DIYs all~
crafting~
kinda interesting actually~
haha~
learn some new way to do crotchet flower~
haha~
but i haven't try it yet~
'cause whenever i reach home,
i stare at my bed~
i really wanna sleep so much~
so so so much~
just like a pig already~
haha~

SleEpiNG is GooD~

^^

Choc~

chocolates~~~

AH~!!!

gonna shout few more times...

AH~!!!

AH~!!!

AH~!!!

haha~
crazy already~
i found tons of chocolate recipe~
wow~
delicious~
but,
my house doesn't have oven~
=(
sad case~
if not,
i can bake pies and cakes...
cookies,
make truffles...

AH~!!!

gotta shout once again~
now really chocolate fever~
haha~
can't stop thinking of chocolate~
even just a small bite a day,
is enough~
haha~

gonna try making chocolate candy~
wish me luck~!

^^

YuM~~

Eat~

please congratz me~
know why?
haha~
'cause i found kimchi recipe~
haha~
so happy now~
but i'm not doing it...
my mum going to make it~
great~
if really done then very nice~
can eat it everyday~
haha~

i really like to eat~
haha~
any food also suit me~
haha~
from chinese food,
to western food...(although i don't like steak~)
then asian food~
but japan~
still ok~
'cause i want to eat smoked salmon only~
haha~

yor~
feel hungry already when talk about food~
i wanna eat somemore~~~!!

AH~~~~!!!

eat~~!!!

Pasta~

searching for recipe nowadays~
kinda lost some creativity~
last time i got lots of idea~
thinking of different food everyday~
now,
maybe i already become a typing machine~
ind also be come machine~
haha~
don't know what to cook~
spirals,
spaghetti,
very bored~
found something interesting to me~
new pasta~
"bowties"
it really looks like bow ties~
so cute~
but need longer time to cook than others~

cooked shells too~
last 2 years i think~
when still in school~
that one mixed with tuna
and some mayo,
some chillies,
wow,
what can i say somemore?
nice,
delicious,
and of course,
spicy...
haha~
'cause i can't take too spicy food~
not good for my stomach~

then spirals,
ya,
much more easier to cook~
'cause it is small~
haha~
so spirals mixed with tomato puree
and
milk + butter,
nice~
mixing with milk and butter just like salad~
but have to control it very well~
'cause cooking milk needs lots of techniques~
haha~

then,
just like normal spaghetti,
but just a bit more width than it is,
linguine~
just like chinese noodle~
what we call "pan mee"
or "hor fun"~
haha~
but same cooking way as normal pasta~
tomato puree
or cream~

wanna find some new way to cook pasta now~
done some fusion in the past,
korean style,
chinese style~
seafood~
but still can't figure out the good way~
i really need an oven~
then i can practice more~
haha~

YumMy~!

Jan~

January~
first month of the year~
it proves,
we passed one more year~
we are getting older,
or can say as,
we are growing up now...
one year elder...
know things well better...
ya,
already getting old~
T.T

can i always remain 18 years old?
i don't wanna get old~~
after need lots of money on facial care~~~
AH~~~~~!!!!
SAVE ME~~~!!!!

but,
think on another way,
after 18,
i can own my stuff~
haha~
great~~!!
haha~
got my own account,
my own cards~
wow~
crazy girl~
haha~
but i admit i am...
crazy girl,
always do crazy stuff~
hahaha~

back to topic first...
ya,
January~
nothing much about January actually~
haha...
just,
i think i know lots of people which their birthday falls on January~
so they can get lots of present for new year~
great~
new year new things~
haha~
i really don't know much about January~

Traditions~

yor~
i think i will soon crazy already~
why o?
'cause almost two to three posts a day~
haha...

wait,
i still haven't figure out...
a while more...
hmm...
post what is better today?
think a while 1st...

tradition,
yesterday's topics...

what we going to do on CNY?
1. taking angpaus (for sure~haha~)
2. eating~crazily~ (haha~will do it every CNY~)
3. visit friends and relatives (must do~)
4.
i don't know already wo~
is almost the same as these for everyone,
right?

but,
don't you think there is a hidden meaning inside?

i do think...

'cause i try to maintain all the traditions every year~
i try my best to do as the past time people do~
maybe you will think is too old-fashion to keep those traditions...
but,
if we don't past the traditions down,
then it will lost somedays...
just as the book written,
all those traditions will keep,
if every generation also keep it as an traditions of the family...

CNY~

no theme for the posts nowadays...
haiz...
very disappointing,
right?
but what can i do?
my mind already jammed up...
chinese new year is round the corner...
and the first day is Valentine's day~
both celebration clash together...
don't go out to restaurant to have your meals...
'cause for sure the price on that day,
will be very very very
extremely expensive...

you can hear chinese new year's songs everywhere now...
they all like competing,
see whose speaker can play louder sounds...
my goodness...
when you shopping...
just like sounds' attack...
but lots of sales around these times...
so,
gotta be careful...
don't let all the songs "boomed" you out...
haha...

what is chinese new year meant to you?
a celebration?
a gathering?
or just to meet up in friends' house to get "angpau"?
think of it...
the tradition,
the original way of celebrating...
maybe you will say,
"we are all live in this modern years...
no need to care about all those myth and what traditions all..."
but you know,
is those traditions
that make us having lots of different celebrations nowadays...
think it back,
think it,
and you will know the meaning in it...

Headache...

having headache~
so bad~
feeling like vomiting and faint~
but after lunch better~
but still feel my head so heavy~
just like tons on my head~
my body can't support that weigh...
maybe i need to figure out why...
but not now...
not feeling like doing it now...
i think after work gotta take some medicine to cure it...
or at least don't let it be so painful...
then only can do work...
if not really don't know how...
kinda difficult to do work if continue to pain like this...
third day already~
if don't cure it somemore,
then it will continue to pain for a long time...
the first time is two weeks plus...
this time,
don't know...
already the third day...
so,
better cure it...
so bad...

Worst Morning~

yesterday happy morning~
now,
ha ha ha...
extremely worse morning~
totally worst...
i think i gotta burst into tears...
i woke up more than three times,
3 am,
5 am,
6.30 am...
the last is the worst,
the alarm clock~
ring like ****
i don't wanna use bad words~
i gonna hate myself 'cause of doing that~
but really annoying,
irritating...
that's the main reason i don't like alarm clock~
hate them so much~
the alarm sound made me so frustrated...
so,
if i heard it early in the morning,
for sure,
i will be so moody and
angry,
yup,
angry for one whole day....
it just ruined my mood for a nice day...
no way,
alarm clock~
no no no...

Happy Morning~~!

Yo~!
what's up!?
haha~
be a bit hip-hop today~
got that feeling so strong today~
haha~
so happy today~~
at last my cheque is banked in this morning~
haha~
so good~
and got card already~
so good~
next time no need always go to bank to take mnoney already~
haha~
so good~
happy for one whole morning~~~
haha~~~

Bank~

in 20 minutes,
from office to bank,
then back to office~
ask a few questions...
imagine how fast i walk~
slower than driving car to the bank la~
for sure~
but
very mad when you heard the officer said,
"Kamu tinggal di Taman XXX,
kena pergi cawangan kat sana buka akaun,
sekarang kena ikut tempat tinggal..."

when i heard that,
#@*%
i scolded bad words...
then he said,
"buka akaun hanya pukul 11 dan pukul 3 aje...
mereka kena ambil giliran rehat..."
&%^#*
once again...
my goodness....
first time facing these kind of problem...
totally mad now...
don't wanna go that bank already...
ever...
hate that bank now...
all the banks seems to be owning enough money now...
changing all of their policy...
want us to die meah~
they really thought everyone can get high salary?
not enough then don't come my bank....
not staying around here don't come here...
my goodness...
oh~
#%&*!
see~
wanna say bad words again....
really~
faint...
and
of course...
mad...
very very mad...

C.U.T.E.~^^

songs~
heard lots of nice songs~
so enjoy...
but i prefer tricky ones~
just like Katy Pery's
--"I kissed a girl"
--"Hot 'N Cold"
love them so much~
'cause very cute~
haha~
i like all cute stuff~
as long it's cute,
then all are okay for me~
haha~
that's why people always say i am childish~
haha~
i admit that...
'cause i like all those things~
haha~
having cute stuff can makes me happy for a long time~
always like that~
haha~
cute cute cute~
cute cute one~
maybe i still don't wanna grow up~
wanna be a small kid~
grow up then got many troubles...
so better don't~
i wish time could stop...
then i really can forever be a small kid~
so good~
^^

Sunny Morning~

yesterday raining,
today~
sunny day~
another way to say is hot~~~
sweat until~
i can say my shirt is totally wet~
really wet...
but just takes it as exercise...
i don't wanna use one bucks just for a very short distance...
so,
just walk~
haha...

can enjoy a lot when you walk~
looking at different cars,
see different people...
really interesting~
^^

the same way,
5-day a week~
kinda bored sometimes...
but
is okay~
i will find the fun inside slowly~
haha~

Love~

LOVE~
a word that you always see it in novels,
especially love novels...
already say is love novels right?
haha~
but
have you ever show or tell it to those you love,
that you love them?
have you?
i not dare to say that i have done it everyday...
but i will try to do it...
'cause is for those i love...
i will try to do it everyday...
i will...

what is love meant for you?
just a feeling of like?
or just a sudden feeling that might gone somedays?
what is it?
for me,
love comes by slowly...
walks in slowly...
you can't realize it very well...
but when you comes to circumstances,
or arguments...
then you only found out the love...
and that love comes by so difficult...
but that's true feeling...
'cause it takes time,
challenges,
and
patients...
so,
don't ever let go the one you are loving now...
no matter what happens...
you won't wanna regret someday...
for your love,
work hard,
manage...
i believe the happiness is just in front...
so,
be true to yourself and the one you love...
that's very important...
share all you have...
be committed...

Love...

In the Rain~

raining in the early morning~
so long never walk in the rain~
although having headache,
still feel so great...
just like those time in school...
didn't get cold or too wet...
let the rain felt on me...
so tiny,
so soft...
and
a bit cold...
ya
but i do think so nice...
each drop just like comforting me...
telling me a different story of themselves...
i like them...
this is one of the reason why i will get sick so easily sometimes...^.<
no reason why,
just wanna feel them...
maybe people will think i am crazy,
but i don't even care...
'cause i just wanna care about myself
and those i love...
others all,
my heart and my mind don't have so many space for them...
sorry to say that...

takes it,
humans are all selfish...
nobody is so generous when comes to all the caring and supporting part...
all the love,
care,
and support,
are just for those they love,
those they really love...
lover,
best friends,
and
of course,
their family...

so i like to feel myself in the rain...
so far so nice...
haha~
'cause i don't walk in the rain while is raining heavily
with thunder and storms all...
haha~
if i did that,
then i think you guys can send me to mental hospital already...
'cause i already crazy...
totally crazy...

Excuses~

one post a day,
enough or not?
for me,
nope...
once comes to words,
i never say enough...

but
i don't have the time...
when i have time,
i don't have the idea~
haiz~
i just like to give excuses~
haiz~
i am so bad...
i knew it...
and i admit it~

bad girl having bad life~
ya,
in people's eyes...
is always satisfy them~
great for them~

i always give excuses~
no matter in what~
so bad,
right?
i just afraid~
i am not as brave as what people see from the outside~
i am not as strong as what people see from the outside~
just pretend to be...
always,
all the time~
bad...
so bad~
haiz~

MayBe~

maybe,
a word that i always use...
showing me lots of "not sure" in my life~
mot sure about this,
not sure about that~
always happen in my daily life~

and this time,
maybe i don't deserve a good life...
ya,
i think so...
whenever i think i can live happily,
wanna start a day happily,
someone will come and splash me with pails of cold water...
early morning
with cold water~
either get cold or
sick...
ya,
sick~
i wish i were sick now~
then i can sleep for few days~
what also can throw away from my mind~
let myself have some space to breathe~
how great~
better than now stress~
haiz~
sad case~
but,
it always happens
and that's just like a cycle~

BAD~

first day working of 2010~
good or bad?
if you ask me that question,
then i will answer you is bad~
i still haven't receive my salary yet,
and i almost get warning letter~
wow~
a very great present for the year~
everything starts so bad~
is worse than i ever thought...
haiz~
what can i do?
i am not the head,
the boss~
i just a tiny one,
or maybe just an useless person in their eyes~
what can i ask from them?
a word from them worth more than mine...

the world is like that~
we can't change the cycle~
this is what i can say~
accept it,
'cause you are part of it,
or ignore it,
and you'll be kick out~
just this two choice...
no more~
bad,
right?

S.U.S.P.E.C.T

you know what is the worst thing happen in the world?
i knew it,
i really knew it since i was young~
maybe when i was 5 or 6~
people suspected me,
why am i giving people so many chances to suspect me?
i don't know why~
am i having those kind of character in me?
i need a mirror,
a mirror that reflects all my characteristics in me~
show me who am i in other people's eyes...
i need to know it,
i don't wanna suffer by people's suspect~
it feels so bad~
you know,
i don't want that...
really terrible~
i don't want it...
that feeling is just like your tears can't come out of your eyes...
you can't cry out,
you can't shout out~
all those kind of feelings~
i don't like that~
not for a person that i don't care even a little bit~
why?
when i think i am happy,
sure something bad will happen~
every time...
so,
if i could choose,
i just wanna people who i love to be happy always...
i don't mind myself is suffering or what...
i just want them to be happy...
no matter what i doing,
i just wanna them to be happy~
see them smile always~
then it's enough for me already~
i don't ask for more~
just that~
enough...